1. And you realize that the problem has never been empty. Your body is an instrument that you’ve never felt like you could play right, but it was never about the blank sheet music around your bones so much as the heavy within them.

2. The full. The wait. The stop. Please, stop yelling at each other for just one night and pay attention to the seven-year-old girl with no eyelashes in the next room. The go, the say something. And in the silence, you wonder how it ever came to this; and you remember the way the first boy who ever liked you back looked at you like he could see you. Don’t think about how he chose to walk away. Don’t ask yourself why not thinking about it feels so hard to carry.

3. The: why is this so hard to fucking carry? Sweetheart, listen, when your palms start to sweat, that’s when you know you’ve been holding on too long. That’s when you need to let go of the rope to tend to the burns underneath.

4. Other people are not medicine.

5. Make peace with your own hands.

6. There will be days when you will be sitting on a bench in public, alone in your car, across the dinner table to a family you don’t recognize, and all of the space around you will make the webs between your fingers ache. And pools of begging reasons to why no one wants to gather you broken in their arms at night will begin to settle in the bow of your eyelids. You wonder how so much can fit inside such a small person and no one notices. Do not make homes for them.

7. Pour them out. Water the soil beneath your feet. Your blonde fringe that was never soft enough for another’s hands, your average GPA, your rough around the edges, their fragmented example of love, his not enough, your soft, your distant, your depression, their divorce, your hollow poems, boy shorts and pale legs, your too much of not enough for another;

8. Grow.

9. Smile at strangers. Give. Give, and don’t expect. Love, and don’t doubt despite its persistent knocking against your fragile, fresh frame. You are enough. You are enough. You’re filled with so much enough between your bruised heart and sore ribs that it’s agonizingly easy to fuse the two in sadness.

10. No one said that the only thing your bones can hold is ache.

"Ten Steps to Loving Yourself More than They Didn’t"
-valentina thompson (via theseoverusedwords)
"Don’t you dare
Shrink yourself
For someone else’s comfort -
Do not become small
For people who refuse to grow."
m.v., Advice to my future daughter, #2. (via findingwordsforthoughts)
"Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say ‘My tooth is aching’ than to say ‘My heart is broken.’"
C.S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain (via maxkirin)

Albert Goldbarth, “The Sciences Sing a Lullaby”


Albert Goldbarth, “The Sciences Sing a Lullaby”

"Don’t try to picture everything bad that could possibly happen. Stick with the situation at hand and ask, “Why is this so unbearable? Why can’t I endure it?” You’ll be embarrassed to answer. Then remind yourself that past and future have no power over you. Only the present."
The Meditations - Marcus Aurelius (via creatingaquietmind)
"You are a wonderful manifestation. The whole universe has come together to make your existence possible. There is nothing that is not you."
Thích Nhất Hạnh  (via wordsnquotes)
"I rise from my worst disasters, I turn, I change."
Virginia Woolf, from The Waves (via creatingaquietmind)

1) You are allowed to take up space. You are a human.

2) You are allowed to have a voice.

3) You are allowed to leave whenever you feel unsafe or uncomfortable.

4) You deserve more than someone who doesn’t know how to respect you.

5) You are allowed to put your own needs first.

6) You are allowed to love yourself.

6:11 p.m. (Six reminders for bad times)
"I let it go. It’s like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home."
Joanne Harris, Five Quarters of the Orange (via wordsnquotes)
"Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe."
Unknown  (via di-running)